A bargain with God!

A well directed piece and beautifully depicted story about the emotional journey of  person, facing loss of somebody very close to him.  I was touched by the storyline. Shiv mentions different phases of grief, when you deal with a loss of someone. The first is Denial, where you wonder as to how can it happen to you .This is something that happens to others. The second phase is anger..why and how come ...this cannot be true,why the fish am I facing this....The third phase is Bargaining with God. You start being ore spiritual, you start doing good to others, you start trading off and saying this should be avoided at all costs. You become a beggar from a bargainer. The next phase is depression, when you realise there wasn't much to bargain, there was any room for negotiation...you know it is happening, you know it cannot be avoided, and ou feel helpless, you realise life is not under your control, nothing belongs to you . One day you will part fro everything that today seems yours..
The last phase is Acceptance.. yes it has happened to you, There is a void, and you have come to terms with it. You cannot fill the void, but you dstract yourself. You find another purpose , you find a higher or a different meaning and you arrive at ZEN.
I so recall having gone through all of these phases myself, where I did all sorts of chanting , praying, blind faith to get her out of the problems, till I myself felt the abyss, till I finally realized that it has happened for real, and it has happened to me...I have fr hours stood in my mothers cupboard just to smell her clothes, touch the things she would have touched, and tried feeling close to her..This movie was a Deja vu experience and never dying positive attitude of Shiv was closest it gets to my Dad. He has been a role model for us during these tough times, and I understand the pain he would have gone through. Definetely very well directed scenes, some of them where Shiv has his eyes open even before the alarm rings, the amount o research he has gone over to do something for his wife, the playful dctors with a very clinical approach o every case, the act of smelling someones clothes , once they are gone ...

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